January 2012
13 posts
I have the most violent changes of preference. I can never gradually begin to dislike or tire of something. It’s always this instant repulsion.
Maybe I’ll go play that one game toda—BLEEGHSFFSPURRLGGAFFLUHH
It’s a requirement for the year 2012 that I see Langhorne Slim at least once.
That awkward and uncomfortable moment when you feel so passionately about something and someone you care for and respect disagrees with you.
Definitely going to need to start (for the millionth time) a private tumblr or something because I feel the need to write freely about things which are on my mind where I can still get opinions from people (that aren’t so closely tied to my life).
I’m a little too excited to be heading to Barnes and Noble tomorrow afternoon.
I’m pretty positive I was previously a cat or something.
I really just want to be held right now…I need to feel close to somethi-GET AWAY FROM ME I HATE ALL EMOTIONS AND I AM ANGRY FOR NO REASON.
A 1 in 5 chance to represent the North Carolina American Water Works Association chapter at NC State and the state of North Carolina itself at a competition/symposium in New Orleans in the summer?
Let’s kill this, senior design project group.
I haven’t been eating lately. I mean, I’ll have a few snacks and eat half of what’s in front of me, but I have neither finished a meal nor had all 3 designated meals in a day for quite a bit of time. I’m not sad/angry/other bad emotions, I’m not sick, and I’m not making a conscious decision to NOT eat. I have no idea what’s going on.
Time Immemorial.: There have been times when I... →
timeimmemorial:
There have been times when I think we do not desire heaven but more often I find myself wondering whether, in our heart of hearts, we have ever desired anything else. You may have noticed that the books you really love are bound together by a secret thread. You know very well what is the common…
December 2011
49 posts
Emotions are kind of wonky-ish.
At least I’m much better at controlling/pacifying them now.
I think my resolutions for 2012 are fairly simple in nature:
Be a better student
Be a better friend
Be a better girlfriend
Go to Christmas party, mingle with all the guests.
Obtain a connection in your industry.
Wearing make-up (other than concealer and mascara) for the first time in a long time.
Feels weird, man.
Time Immemorial.: Not only must we accept that... →
timeimmemorial:
Not only must we accept that basic properties of our universe are accidental and uncalculable. In addition, we must believe in the existence of many other universes. But we have no conceivable way of observing these other universes and cannot prove their existence. Thus, to explain what we see in…
Why did I not bring my Sims 1 games home with me? THIS IS OPTIMAL TIME FOR PLAYING THE SIMS.
I really just want to slow-dance.
Now that I’m not preoccupied with schoolwork, the reality of having SAD is coming back in waves. It’s nowhere near as bad as it has been in the past, but the emotional numbness is there occasionally. I think this is something I’m just going to have to push myself through year to year. Medication helped kick off this recovery last year; let’s hope it keeps the momentum...
Despite being down in the dumps at the moment, the past few days have been good to me.
Brittany and I had a great visit to go see Riley—we didn’t do anything too nuts, but it was great to just relax and hang out with great friends. Throughout the past 9(?!) years we’re still the same cut-ups we’ve always been. I’m glad some things never change.
Emotional distance sucks.
Currently feeling like I’m pretty low on the list.
I’ve been acting like such a royal bipolar bitch to Casey lately and I’m so, so sorry.
In about an hour and a half, Brittany and I will be underway to go see Riley. I feel like it’s been years since I’ve seen him.
This afternoon was extremely pleasant.
A little bit of wine and lots of family. Had a lot of great talks with relatives about the present, the future and everything else under the sun.
Also found out I made A’s and B’s in every class this semester when I was sure I was bound to fail two of my classes. The professors in my department are absolutely fantastic.
Today, I am completely...
I really need to start utilizing the tag function on here.
Going to start submitting multiple job applications for after graduation while on break. This is all kind of frightening…and oddly exhilarating.
Doing my best to stick to what I feel like I’d actually enjoy doing, i.e. Consulting for drinking and waste water treatment plants, analytical chemistry or even possibly something with political ties (EPA, etc?)
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timeimmemorial:
Anti-intellectualism has been a constant thread winding its way through our political and cultural life, nurtured by the false notion that democracy means that ‘my ignorance is just as good as your knowledge’.
— Isaac Asimov, Column in Newsweek, 21 January 1980
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Don’t you understand? That human being who’s going to die down there is furious because his fellow man isn’t going to die with him. If he had his choice, he’d tear the other man to pieces with his teeth and nails rather than let him go on enjoying life while he himself is about to be deprived of it. Oh, mankind, race of crocodiles! How well I recognize you down there, and how...
famousflowerof-manhattan replied to your post: rileymcg replied to your post: Currently losing…
Have you seen my dad’s Tubby McG facebook page?
Ugh, yes. Not firsthand, really, but I’ll hear talks of things posted on there from either him or the ‘rents.
Apparently he and I had shared the same article on Facebook about women being denied the morning after pill due to politicians...
rileymcg replied to your post: Currently losing tons of respect for my father. …
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Blatant bigotry, really. We were trying to have an intelligent discussion about different laws passing around the world and he ended up uttering some quote along the lines of “All Muslims can kiss my ass…herp derp derp…when you’re living under Sharia law you’ll understand where...
Currently losing tons of respect for my father.
Cool, dad.
All I really want is to spend an entire afternoon—I’m talking like, 5-7 hours—talking with someone about innovative ideas, religion, censorship, sexuality, the state of the world, life-altering experiences, love, the environment, scientific theories, traditions, culture, careers, everything.
Coming home is very depressing sometimes.
I haven’t really been home in awhile. I mean, I’ve been home for a dinner or a quick visit but I haven’t been home—you know?
Clayton’s changed. The Coffee Mill closes at 2pm now. 2:00PM? What coffee shop closes at 2:00pm? I used to spend entire days in there reading Sylvia Plath or Jung or Nietzsche while hanging out with...
Random, but I may start tweeting more often. Not really sure that I need three different means of social media to convey my thoughts, but, eh. Whatever.
@helloblueskies
Exams are over, for better or worse. I feel pretty good about them overall—no huge surprises. Grades should be coming in a matter of days. Oy vey.
At least now I can allow myself to actually enjoy the holiday season.
